Baby Boy Is Growin Up

Very simple but really didn't think it needed anything else. I was talking to Dean on the phone this morning as we were discussing all of the things that Andy needs for camp on Sunday. He will be leaving Sunday and returning the following Saturday. It just kinda hit me and it really scares the hell out of me. He has NEVER been away so long before. Sure he stays at Grams alot but I always know where he is and what he is doing and Grams only lives a couple blocks away. You'd think at 12 that it would be easier to let them venture out on their own and let them make their own mistakes. Well it's not. I still want to protect him from everything. I continue to go through this mid-life crisis which I thought was about going out and doing all the crazy things that I didn't get to do when I was young. Well for me? I am struggling something awful with the fact that my kids are really almost grown. I only have 6 years left with Andy. Damn where did all the time go??? Kate will be turning 9 this Saturday. I guess I am afraid of being alone. What am I gonna do??? I LOVE being a Mom and while some say, you will have grandkids. It's just not the same to me! I always hoped for at least one more baby as I am only 31 but as time goes on, it doesn't look hopeful unless I were to leave Dean for a younger man! LOLL

This picture of Andy was taken when he was probably about 3. Picture quality isn't that great but he was such a beautiful baby. Wild little maniac but damn he was cute. Now he is growing up into a handsome young man.