Xmas Cena Style

I am REALLY happy with this one. I bought a new kit today from Natali. LOVE LOVE LOVE it! Been trying to get some inspiration from some of my girls at DST. I am getting inspiration alright! It usually is followed by a purchase! LOLL

Partly irritated as I sit here typing this. While I am really tired (I usually am so no REAL biggie) I thought that Kate would be home @ 3 and we were gonna head to town to get my paycheck. She has tutoring one day a week. While I am ALL for this, I just wish it was on the same day. Sometimes it is Wednesday, sometimes it is Thursday. It is really aggravating because I am SUCH a planner!

Speaking of which. I finally got my work schedule last night. New schedule begins in 2 days so it was REALLY nice that she posted it so far in advance! (TOTAL SARCASM!!!) It is especially irritating to me because I have 2 jobs and I really like to be able to give my other employer my schedule because she does hers like a month in advance and the schedule is for a full month. My other job only post 2 weeks at a time.
I love (most) of the people I work with @ both jobs but I get SO tired of fake, 2 faced people. They are everywhere!!! I really hate it when I find out that some of those 2 faced people are the ones I am closest with.

TIME 2 VENT!!!!!

I work with another nurse, who I have worked with for about 2 years now. I like to think we are pretty close. On more than one occasion she has upset (understatement) me by acting differently around the day shift nurses. This is other nurse is very intelligent and on more than one occasion she has made me feel like a TOTAL idiot when the day shift gets in just to display herself in a brighter light.

I JUST DON'T GET IT!

I always stick up for my friends and back them where needed. I don't even know that she is aware of the way she treats me but I have decided from here on out that I just won't go anywhere near her after 6am because that is when she turns into one of them! (I know, she sounds monster like huh?)

My feelings get hurt pretty easily I guess! Maybe it is because I am CONSTANTLY feeling inferior anyway and she just confirms that 4 me. Most of the nurses I work with have been nurses for years and if I haven't been exposed to it on the job then I don't know much about it. I have only been a nurse for 2 years and there is still sooooooo much I need to learn. I often regret the decision of working nights right out of school because I don't get the experience that I think I would during the day. HOWEVER, night shift is DEFINITELY my forte. I love every other aspect of it.

We are gearing up for a big weekend. Well Dean is. He is having his daughter up. I guess the plan is to take her driver's test in my car. All this information was revealed to me about 10 minutes ago. WEE HEEE!!! I guess I wouldn't mind her visits so much if we had a bigger house. Partly, I am embarrassed of our house and I don't like any visitors at all anyway. When I come home, I just feel like nobody knows I live here as long as I make it inside without anyone seeing.
One day, I hope to have a nice house that I can be proud of. I wish I had good credit or I married a man that had good credit. NO SUCH LUCK! God had a different plan for me I suppose. (I have YET to figure out what it is) I guess I should be thankful that I have a roof over my head (even though it leaks in about a million different places). I suppose I should be thankful that I have heat to keep me warm (although VERY drafty in most all of the house).

This bothers me a lot more than it does Dean. Dean doesn't care what people think of him. He just doesn't. It shows in the way he carries himself, the way he dresses, the way he throws all his crap out in the yard. He just DOESN'T care! Me? I try to make the most with what I've got (and it ain't much!!!!)

Thankful 4 what I have but still dreaming of soooooooo much more!

Credits:
Smaller Papers: Iara Gomes-Baer (Last Christmas)

BG Paper and smaller papers: Gina Marie Huff (Holiday)

Notebook paper: Manu

Journaling Font: CC Pulp Fiction
07 Font: Charming